23June is coming to town.

Most probably going out with my family to eat Tepanyaki at my fav. place. hee

This year will likely to go clubbing with friends around 12May, Fri. Thinking of asking Weiliang, Wenbin, Kiang Jie to go also. But will see how la, if they free to come or not.. haha

Hmm.. u MUST BE ASKING/SHOULD BE ASKING/NEED TO KNOW what present I want. yeah.
Not alot of things la..

1. AngBao w/ real, singapore dollar
2. Ticket to Japan
3. Ticket to SPEED Live Concert 2009
4. Camera w/ extremely good zoomin/quality

Yup! That is basically what I wanted. haha

But of course there is things might not be suitable for me now.

1. Wallet - I have one more wallet haven use yet
2. Photo Frame - haha.. I dun print my photos so no need
3. Cup - Be it plastic or glass, i have one more Takako Fanclub cup not yet use. haha

Have done something since my last update about myself, might find one day to upload some photos up. hehe

Ever thought of dying on the same day as ur birthday? I Did.
Anyway, my birthday is coming soon. Maybe a surprise on dat day?

Like that people will just have to remember one date isnt it? I very xi xin right?

Ever thought of how you want your funeral to look like? I Did.

For my funeral, I would like to have a more relax one. Instead of playing typical buddha reciting prayer, I want to listen to SPEED/Britney/Fann song. Isnt that be more original and fun? Imagine listening to Britney's Womanizer or If You Seek Amy?
and paste sticker of Fann, SPEED, Britney beside my coffin? hmm.. sound so cool eh but a bit weird la, maybe they 'pandan' hor. I wan my coffin to be black, more classic.

Then i wan my drink that will be serve to people to be Coke. My fav. drink when im alive. hee and each of my relative to receive a SPEED latest single. ?? :D

I know it sounds weird talking this kind of thing now since I havent found my "C" thingy. I just wan to be prepared first before anything happens. Keep your/my fingers cross.

Does writting my WILL here counted in court? Dun think so though.. But I would love to give all my money(if i have any la) to my family. Of course, if i have a lot of money when I die(hope so lah har.. haha) maybe i will take hmm.. lets say 5% and give it out to Weiliang, Wenbin, Kiang Jie, Ah Joo Jie, Ah Ming gor gor. arh~ 1% each.

Cool~

Ok la, just wan to say, im nt trying to act sad here la. It just that maybe still got some people haven think of this kind of thing. So since im so free now, i might as well think of it now. Right?

im done..

wat have I done piss off people?

seriously, i have no idea what else i can do already.

i just hate it when im doing that..
everybody seems to be having a negative things about me..
i have no hope in myself..

i know im bad..
everything about me is so totally bad..
im running out of words and running out of ideas how to describe myself already.

sorry for being so negative.
no one is perfect but im not even close to okay.
im just as horrible as what people/myself think of me.
no one can help me but myself. it may sound so dramatic and fake but this is so true.

some people may think they aint fortunate or leading a life that they have to work so hard but u noe what.. that is what exactly need in someone. strive hard to get to what they want. and exactly what i lack of and i dunno what way can i make myself doin that.

i have no aim and no direction in life already. Or do I ever had one before?
but im still grateful that i have very very great family and friends ard me but i feel sorry for them because if i have a way, i would chose to not even noe/related to them. nt their fault, its mine. i just hate it(and sometimes even laugh at them) when ppl ard me talking about how they got their aims in life and how much they wanted to do things that they wanted to achieve because i know im nt like them. I feel so foolish, stupid, ignorance and irritating(about myself) when im with them.

im nt trying to ask people to take pity of me because i know there is lotsa of ppl who needs it more than i do. and i hate it when I know they just wasting their time doing it. i feeling more and more away from this world, u may think that it foolish/silly to think this way but tt is exactly what i feel for the moment.

I have a lot of things that i chose not to tell because i know that is what they dun wan to listen and me myself dun wan to admit. im sorry but if one day i find that "C" thingy(which honestly, i dun think i will ever find that) and do something that sound foolish or stupid. All i can say is im sorry to do that and 'hurt' u in the way u feel im hurting u or my family. im just doing what i think is right and most good for me. Isnt it something many people say in life or dramas? last but not least... love me, hate me, say what u want about me but all i want is to find that "C" thingy to finish off everything in a good or bad way.

YEAH! Its been out for 2days le so consider quite late doing tis but who cares!

They look hot especially hiro~ So pretty hor.

new SPEED music video coming soon wor~

SPLENDID!

POP!

DANCE!

SPEED!!!